The need to breath (2)

An Update:
2 days back, I piggybacked my dad from home to the lift landing to the taxi. We reached Singapore General Hospital at about 10.30am. I was disgusted by the hospital's regulations when the counter staff told me that if there are no appointments being made, my dad could only go visit Accident & Emergency Department or a polyclinic. I wanted to shout at the staff what do you mean by appointment ONLY? My dad is diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and is now in pain suffering, is unable to move from neck down and you tell me by appointment ONLY?!

I was at the verge to shout but I kept my cool. He actually has an appointment on the 27th which is 3 days later but he couldn't wait any longer and had to see the doctor. We pushed him on a wheel chair straight to National cancer centre without any further to do.

From there he was sent to the Accidents & Emergency department by ambulance as there are no specialists doctor to see him. From 12pm to 7pm he was there at the Accidents & Emergency department being seen by numerous doctors and professors and has taken lots of x-rays, bone scans etc.

Today, he is warded and is going for MRI scan. I hope everything is ok.

Simple and thoughtful prayers from a great colleague in Vietnam

 

A big thanks to you, thuy and to all the people that cared. Thanks to the apple too for comforting me during this period. I do pray that he is alright. At least live on till he sees me graduate, go for overseas trip together, get married and have kids.

The need to breathe

My dad will be going to the hospital tomorrow. I will carry him. He is my only father. I hope he will never leave us. It will never be the same again. Please shorten my life in exchange for him and let me be filial for a few more years.

 

Riding my bike with music blasting in my ear, tears blurred my view and i needed to breathe. The battle has not started and i've lost. The apple was never mine to keep. Thou I'm already here at amk-bishan park, alone, I needed someone. I need to cry. I know it's stupid, but you'll never feel how I feel given my situation.

 

Being a man is tough. I shed blood in accidents but never will I tear easily. When i finally decide to keep the apple forever, I realise the apple was not mine. Never. What am I doing? I knew it's poisonous but still I fell. Now I'll have to get up and disappear because I'm afraid I'll bite on the apple again. Why can't the apple be mine?

 

 

Get well soon, dad

It has been some time since dad was diagnosed with cancer. At certain periods, he's actually getting better. However at times he would still feel the pain. Therefore, he went to some Chinese traditional medicine practitioner to ask for cure. I told them its useless. Just eat well, rest and exercise and he will get better. He refuses to listen and now he has problems walking.

I guess they will finally stop and go back to the hospital. I'll have to pray that he gets well soon.

During fathers' day a few days back, I've brought some fish essences and hasma for him to strengthen his body and had given him some money. Everything now is bad. Let's pray and hope he gets well soon.

Recently I've been busy with communicAsia exhibition. While exhibiting, a 'thai' lady caught my eye. That was what me and my colleague thought of her. Yesterday we had lunch together with 2 of her other friends. It's good I got to know a few more friends. It was fun and happy eating and chatting together thou we are not very close friends.

Thought of the week:
Love someone not because of how she looks.
Love someone because of how she is.
Love someone because of what you see in her.
Love someone only when you are willing to give her happiness.
And it's blessed to be loved  in return.