他不爱我 - 金莎

Its a nice Chinese song! I love it a lot. A song means a lot. Sometimes it means how you feel deep down.

I love her
Only her
But it seems the love will have to stop here
I'm tired
too tired
I've finally gave up being persistent
I've always thought that in her heart, she also cares for me
Always thought that deep in her heart I'm special...
That's why I've always believe one day, she'll say she loves me too
I think I'm wrong
She does not love me
That why she is dubious
She does not love me
That is why she does not wish to have me
She does not love me
That's why she has forgotten to dote me
No matter how much I do, I won't be able to touch her heart
She doesn't love me
She rather prefers freedom
She doesn't love me yet keeps looking at me in this manner
Doesn't love me is because I'm afraid to admit that he is only able to be dubious...

Its been looong

Hello peeps, it has been real long. Many things have happened since I last updated. Let me update on the major events that happened so far.

• Took up Bachelors degree (honours) in Business and Information technology(ERP) in UNISIM
• Left OCBC bank as a mortgage specialist.
• Joined SJ Manufacturing as a Technical Sales Engineer
• Dad has stage 4 cancer
• Opened an online ecommerce store; Cloverelle

I am seriously tired and deprived of sleep. I work from 8am to 6pm. 7pm to 10pm I have school. 11pm to 12am I'll have dinner and wash up. I'll have to wake up at 6.30am the next day.

I'll have to score well because its a direct honours programme. If I don't, I may get kicked out anytime. But every time I go to school at night, I'm so tired. I'll have to use my Sat and Sun to study.

Dad has met with cancer. I'm sure it feels terrible. It's definitely not helping when the medical bills keep stacking and I'm the only sibling contributing to the family of 6. I don't really care who contributes and who doesn't. I just pray for my dad's speedy recovery. Lord, if you can hear this, please take away his illness and make him well again.

My online store is not moving. Its not because I have no resources or plans. I have them. But I don't have time.

I'm still yet to find my other half. I believe its not about finding the perfect one. I believe it's about creating a right relationship. I believe its love and hard work. But there's just no one yet. It certainly hurtz when you are trying hard to make the relationship right but that person tells you that you are just nothing to her. It's painful. To the girl you love, you naturally would do anything at all for her. Anything including becoming just friends with her. Anything including being nothing.